warning: self harm mentions

whewwwww its been.....a minute, to say the least. and a lot has happened as well. school completely fell through on me last semester, i dont think i mentioned it much in my previous couple of journals but for a while id still been picking up the pieces lol. im set to move in to an apartment next month though and all i need to do is pay for my classes at this point (fully enrolled!). other than that i had been noticing my weight plateauing for purely no good reason. like, undereating and abusing my body with exercise and nothing was happening. about a month ago i saw a doctor and got diagnosed with hashimoto's - which is basically an autoimmune disease that kills your thyroid over time. its left me struggling to lose weight and EXTREMELY, extremely tired. like struggling to remember anything at all and struggling to stay awake at all hours of the day, regardless of how much sleep id gotten. im still figuring out my medication dosage, which may take a while to be honest, but ive slowly started to begin losing weight again. i really hope itll all be up from here. its been pretty depressing lately if im completely honest. lots of falling out with family, health in decline, school initially not working out the way id wanted. its just been a lot. and, im not proud to say it, ive been struggling with cutting again lately. without food to take the edge off things ive just been having such a hard time finding other means. im still hopeful, and i dont mean to get so depressing, everything has just been a lot lately is all.